Weekend Recap and other things against my Better Judgement

Puking Child miraculously stopped puking sometime early Saturday morning, which provided for a few hours of sleep before the chocolate Pop Tart demands began. Ex Husband Wonder Dad (see, I still call you that even when I AM mildly annoyed) offered to take the recooperating Puker for the weekend anyway - promises to get her to bed "on time" and make sure she doesn't overdo it.... either he just plain did what he promised or did a damn fine job covering it up. Either way, I was happy. Showed up with both girls in tow on Sunday morning - at agreed time to get Jordin ready for every-mothers-worst-nightmare dance competition.

Left relatively on time to make it to the dance competition - SB and EHWD in tow.... made it to Gwinnett on time and in one piece ... and watched competition. Jordin - looking absolutley adorable with her adorable dance friends, put on a great show... left competition for break and lunch. Minor disagreement with Jim over birthday importance.... pep talk from Former MIL regarding setting expectations (love that woman) and then, a talk with my friend Katey about "boundaries." Love her even more.

Ok. So - then, in the midst of the "disagreement", Jim (you know, EHWD) says to me that the root of my problem is that I am still ... "stuck on him." Yikes. This is currently the source of great concern for me - as I am discouraged that my closeness with him has been mistaken for being "stuck". I am concerned that I walk around thinking:

"damn. jim. me. we can do this friend thing and be really good at it. i'll therefore tell him 90% of everything going on and be especially nice as much as possible."

and he thinks:

"damn. rachaels doing lots of nice things. she writes nice things about me in her blog and lets me read them. she's not AS BIG a pain in the ass as before. she must still be stuck on me."

and this bothers me. I want to be friends for the sake of being friends. Simple. Pure. No other hidden motives or agendas. I mean, it's been at least a year since I've done the whole, "let's get back together," idea. A year. Jim, I think this is worthy of thinking about. While yes, putting the broken pieces of our family back together would be wonderful... you know, "for the girls," I think I've sadly realized that I don't know if I would now even if the opportunity ever existed. That's sad.

And, to my women friends - don't get me wrong. In true woman fashion, despite how nice she will probably be, I will cry and have a fit when there is "officially" Someone Else. I will. Then I will promptly get over myself.

And Jim, I would just like to say that we can never write a fabulous book on How to Be Divorced Successfully if one of us is always thinking the other one is still madly in love. How unscientific would that be... Rule #5. Always remember your spouse still wants you back.

There will be no formal conversation with Jim regarding this subject. Primarily because we don't review things said in haste at later dates. Also, because he's the Puking Adult tonight.

And, this is the other problem.

Too many people read this blog who KNOW me. TOO many. Including Jim. Which brings me to my next topic.

Things Against My Better Judgement.

You will note I have added links over there... one of them is Jim's blog. He linked to me... I link to him. Viola. Check out his blog. Leave him comments. Nice ones. Don't get me in trouble.

And if Jim and I do ever write a book.. the cover WILL be pink.