*Creative Me*
the @#*@( is back

Tomorrow, though I am not sure how, I have been talked into actually "advertising" my photography. I am not really sure how I feel about this other than nervous, scared, anxious, embarrassed and etc., but - tomorrow looms. No, I haven't blogged about it before now because I am in complete denial - thinking that if I don't think about it, surely it will go away... (damn, this is a prominent theme in my life)

So - on Wednesday the last-minute-I-should-have-been-preparing-for-this-weeks-ago odyssey began. I sat down with the light table and the magnifying glass and started going through negatives... I mean, it would be a BIT vain to only display photos of my own children, right? Hours later, I have narrowed down the choices and filled out all the cute little reprint envelopes.

Dropped those off at the lab to be enlarged, and then, much to my complete displeasure, Creative Me surfaced. *She* is my alter ego - the one who bakes crazy cupcakes, makes homemade Valentines, and knits scarves. *She* sometimes makes my life hell, and is most certainly the reason I am probably undiagnosed with ADD. Yeah. Well, she's back.

Creative Me decided that my "booth" tomorrow should be fabulous.... It should be pink and girlie and look very artistic. She said she wants to wrap boxes with pink paper and use those to display photographs on... She says she wants a little "tea party" table with all the "tea party" pictures on it.... Regular Rachael tried to argue with Creative Me on this one, (she is so logical and tried to nicely explain that we have waited till the last minute and therefore must forgo creativity) but, Creative Me shoved her in a closet and slammed the door. (I am currently writing this from the dark closet.)

So - she's out there... She's running all over town spending too much money on some crazy idea. She's wrapping boxes with pink paper and ribbons, buying cheap, yet cute frames at Ross and TJ Maxx, and - making a cute brochure to pick up at the booth. Damn her. She's ordered this "photo purse," with Jordin's ballet picture on it to display... She made up cute wording and a sign too. She's very vain, Creative Me, and she seems to think this whole thing is going to go fabulously well - and that afterwards, people will be banging down the door to have me photograph their children....

... At which point, she has promised to release me from this closet... And then, she's going to send me a bill for her services... Or, maybe she'll just take a commission.